Thursday, July 16, 2015

Couch 2 5k Adventure

Okay, so I started running. I started the Couch 2 5K and I'm on week 4 but have done week 3 twice. First I will say that it has not been as bad as I thought it would be. At first I hated it but it helps to have a friend to keep me motivated. I'm okay once I get started but it's the getting started that is a challenge. We've been running in the evening after work and has been HOT. Oklahoma summers are no joke and I think I have sweat more than I ever have in my life but it has been amazing. Let's recap my first 4 weeks...
Week 1 was rough. My feet hurt, my legs hurt, I was sweating like a crazy person, my breathing was off, it was HOT. In fact I didn't want to do it at all. I was thinking of how hard it was going to be the entire time and I even told myself that I was an absolute crazy person. Mind you, I was only going Tuesday and Thursday evenings.
Week 2 got a little bit easier. I could breath better and each step didn't hurt as badly. I wouldn't say I was enjoying it but I didn't hate it as much as I did the week before.
Week 3 was also easier to breath but the runs started getting longer and that was another challenge. By this time I had gotten use to heat a little more and I started focusing on finishing. I also realized that I was enjoying myself.
Week 4 we decided to do week 3 over and not move on with the app. We aren't in a hurry and week 3 has 9 minutes of running, so why not? We also stepped up and started going 3 days a week. We switched our runs to Monday, Wednesday and Friday evenings and get this we added Tuesday evening as well (we only walked).
I'm a beginner but I have always loved running. All my adult life I have turned to running to lose weight but I also got lazy and never kept it up. Or I would lose what I wanted and then think to myself that I didn't have to anymore. The funny thing about this mentality was that I would always end up in the same place I started. Bad habits would creep back up, I would start eating junk, not drinking enough water, etc.
How is this time different? Honestly I don't know that it is other than I am doing it for my health instead of weight loss. I finally am starting to be okay with my body and I'm happy in my life. I have an amazing husband who loves me curves and all, 4 perfect kids that like to camp out in my ass (I can't turn around without bumping onto one of them), and family and friends that love me for me. I can't remember a time in my life when I actually let myself be enough.

Sunday, July 5, 2015

OMG I have 4 kids!!!

Wow! Life just keeps moving. Now I'm a mother of 4! It seems so crazy that I have 4 kids. I never dreamed I'd have one not to long ago. Now I have nights when I would be happy to just poop alone for once. I often wonder if I'm a good mom. I don't have to be great but I definitely want to be a good one. I think back on the times each  day that I got annoyed or lost my mommy cool and try to recall what triggered my blood pressure to go up and I meditate on it. Every night I do this. I always want to remind myself why I became a mother, how much I wanted a large family.  It helps me improve myself everyday. And I listen to other mothers and I take their advice to heart. I want my children to grow up strong and independent but I also want them to be loved and know they are loved.
This is how I know I'm a good mother. I am willing to grow and learn for them, together. I count my blessings every single day for each and every one of them. They are such little miracles. I never thought I could ever love anything so much. Yes I'm bossy and over protective at times but what mom isn't? MamaBear is just doing her thing, right?
We all make mistakes as parents but it's important to learn and grow from them.
For example, we had dinner with my husband's family this evening to celebrate Harper's birthday. Lars had asked me for a second cupcake and I told him to wait until we got home. He waited until we got home and reminded me of my promise right away. But a promise is a promise so he got his cupcake. Now I'm paying for it because I think this kid is definitely on a sugar high! It's 10pm and as he puts it, "not tired mom" as I'm trying to get him to go to bed.
In that example I was annoyed b/c he was right. I made a promise and he knows I always keep my promises. So he got his cupcake and I got my wild child. But I also learned that this little guy is getting super smart and he knows how to get what he wants. Next time I'm definitely going to have to watch the clock before I promise extra cupcakes! He probably had a few at the party that I didn't see! I could go on but I'm very tired... Peace out!

Saturday, March 28, 2015

Life update

Wow... it's been a long time since I've been on my blog. I'm sorry about that. So I guess the best thing to do is give and update on our life. Dustin is working at Baker Hughes as a Wireline Operator and he seems to really like it. Claudia is growing up into a little lady. She wears make up and wants to start shaving her legs. Yikes!!! Harper is doing better this year in Kindergarten but I think she has ADHD. Very hard on us! Therapy here we come. Lars is playing tball and loves it. So cute watching them learn the fundimentals of baseball. And they're all so darn cute!
More later.... night!! RIP Earlie Dean Malone, will be missed by so many.

Sunday, January 11, 2015

Birthday Boy!!!

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